woha what a day! so many things going on and soo little time to do them! mostly just cleaning my room and running around getting things done. 3 day weekend ahhh yess. lol i hope that all is going well for everyone. i am playing the new grand theft auto game right now and it is sweet!

check in l8er!

k

woha 2 days in a row! lol, i dont really have anything to say but i was on here looking around and thought i would make this the first time that i posted 2 days in a row. well i might not get this done in the next 5 min but i was typing on the 14th anyway.

The ticks of time clamber to a stop as darkness falls on the earth. Snow is in the air but where? maybe over there, the smell of hot cocoa cooking in an open fire. still void of light, the night drags on with a limp. long hours pass as years to an old wound. yet through the pitch a song comes wafting through the snow stained blackness. one of happiness in the crosshairs of evil, a mightly laugh, perhapes more then human. yes, actually it is God himself laughing oh so hard at the dark snowy night and the devil that made it. in his arms sheltered from the reach of smooth blackness, was a small child not yet able to take care of its self. yet it was safe in him and through him alone.

Because of him

K

Where am I? Lost in a world not my own, like snow in hell i suppose. The joys of life never so apparent yet so far away. truly amazing with wonder from wonders sake, seeing through blurred eyes. die every night with love, and wake up still to a new day. Good morning. Your eye lids raise ever so slowly as the sleep tries to keep them closed. your mind wonders in and out from dream to alarm clock and back. music slowly creeps into your head and jolts you awake, yep its time to get up. approaching full conciousness, eyes now open. your in a room full of people, not just anyone but everyone that you consider friends and family. All eyes are on you! What do you do? . . .

i hope that all is well with everyone, and if its not shoot me an e-mail and i will bring your issue up with the prayer group @ church if you would like. God is always watching and he knows our hearts, minds and soul. Most of all he loves us, this should be enough to make you smile. like the above said what would you do if you woke up and everyone that you know was looking at you, well i would smile and say good morning.

Em, Laura thank you for your replies yesterday. today was okay. i am having huge problems with this pc. something has happened to it and i cant (for once) gain control over it. i have to run it in safe mod other wise it doesnt run at all. so i will keep this short, thanks for being there for me.

kel

What is a dream? Something that you think about the day after, an assperation? What do you do with your dreams? Think how nice it would be and then forget about it, try and make the dream last just a little longer? How many times has a dream come true in your life? Have you ever thought about the dream that you live everyday? Or do you think that you live a nightmare?

What happens when you wake up one morning and you dream is gone? Has that happened to you? Have you ever closed your eyes to drift to sleep only to open them and its morning again? You dont have any idea what the dream was or where it went. For a flash moment you sit still trying to think what it was, but it illudes you. Do you continue with your day as you would any other day, only you feel like you didnt sleep? Why is that?

Do you feel like you are alone even when people are always around you? But at the same time you know someone is watching, you just dont know who? When was the last time that you went to a party or a bar and did not talk to anyone because you didnt feel like it? Is there a connection between these two things? Probably not, but they need to be answered in your heart as in mine.

I am the last one to complain or show my deepest feelings but after today i cant help it.

All my dreams have been shattered, I have hit a low that i hope i wake up from someday. I am alone, i have no money, i have no way to make more money, i cant drive anywhere to make more friends or meet a girl. even when i have friends over i feel like part of the wall paper, or that they want something from me or they want me to make something for them. I am going to bed and maybe everything will be better in the morning, i just wish that when you get down people around you dont start kicking you just because they can.

dont worry em this is not about you, or any of my somewhat close friends i am just low. thanks for everything. . .